Xiao Wen's Mini Farewell Dinner
Had dinner at Thai express... followed by.
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DESERTS at coffee club!!!(xiaowen's treat...hehe...so nice of her)
Living for the smile of my Prince
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Had dinner at Thai express... followed by
Thursday, April 24, 2008
My Birthday Photos. (16 March 2008)
Living for the smile of my Prince
Monday, April 21, 2008
Going for HIS Best for me
I didn't get into the courses that i wanted and applied for in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I was disappointed -- devastated, to be exact-- when i received the news on April 1st. Anger and bitterness crept into my heart as i questioned God, asking Him why He had to take away everything from me. My future, my dreams were shattered into pieces. The Lord did answer my questions though. Every time i asked "Why" , I felt that familiar tugging at my heart, and a small voice saying, "Trust Me, trust Me", yet i pushed it all away. I was just so tired of trusting Him, of believing. But I thank God that He spoke to me through so many people, friends, my parents and even through the sermon Pastor Khong preached on 6th April and the word given by Pastor Fei Fei during tribe meeting. He didn't give up on me, He didn't let me go even when I was at the verge of giving up on Him. He broke through the walls of disappointment that I had built around myself and brought me back into the light of His presence. He gave me the assurance that He has His best for me and that His beautiful dreams for me are on its way to becoming a reality.
The psychology course in NP was what I had initially thought of as the best stepping stone for my future, but I guess it's quite crystal clear that it wasn't His best for me. In my rashness of wanting a secured future in the public stream and in my desire to do what the world saw as normal, I had failed to realise that God's best for me was what really mattered. I wanted to have the same kind of education other teens my age had so badly that it clouded my vision of seeing what His best for me really was. But once again He reminded me of something that I've read earlier this year, 'Normal to God isn't a set of formulas; it's obedience no matter what the cost, absolute trust in His leading, and total dependence upon Him for the outcome.'
So what now? You may ask. Well, I'm going to continue doing my Accelerated Christian Education (homeschool program) for another 1 year or so. And just want to let you all know that the decision to continue this christian education isn't based upon the reason that I have nowhere to go thus settling for it, but it is based upon the fact that this is His best for me.
I still do not know what the future may bring and I can't guarantee that I won't question God again. But what I do know is that my hope, strength and trust is in the Lord. I have found my security in Him and I hold on to the promise that He knows what's best.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."--Jeremiah 29:11
I didn't get into the courses that i wanted and applied for in Ngee Ann Polytechnic. I was disappointed -- devastated, to be exact-- when i received the news on April 1st. Anger and bitterness crept into my heart as i questioned God, asking Him why He had to take away everything from me. My future, my dreams were shattered into pieces. The Lord did answer my questions though. Every time i asked "Why" , I felt that familiar tugging at my heart, and a small voice saying, "Trust Me, trust Me", yet i pushed it all away. I was just so tired of trusting Him, of believing. But I thank God that He spoke to me through so many people, friends, my parents and even through the sermon Pastor Khong preached on 6th April and the word given by Pastor Fei Fei during tribe meeting. He didn't give up on me, He didn't let me go even when I was at the verge of giving up on Him. He broke through the walls of disappointment that I had built around myself and brought me back into the light of His presence. He gave me the assurance that He has His best for me and that His beautiful dreams for me are on its way to becoming a reality.
The psychology course in NP was what I had initially thought of as the best stepping stone for my future, but I guess it's quite crystal clear that it wasn't His best for me. In my rashness of wanting a secured future in the public stream and in my desire to do what the world saw as normal, I had failed to realise that God's best for me was what really mattered. I wanted to have the same kind of education other teens my age had so badly that it clouded my vision of seeing what His best for me really was. But once again He reminded me of something that I've read earlier this year, 'Normal to God isn't a set of formulas; it's obedience no matter what the cost, absolute trust in His leading, and total dependence upon Him for the outcome.'
So what now? You may ask. Well, I'm going to continue doing my Accelerated Christian Education (homeschool program) for another 1 year or so. And just want to let you all know that the decision to continue this christian education isn't based upon the reason that I have nowhere to go thus settling for it, but it is based upon the fact that this is His best for me.
I still do not know what the future may bring and I can't guarantee that I won't question God again. But what I do know is that my hope, strength and trust is in the Lord. I have found my security in Him and I hold on to the promise that He knows what's best.
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."--Jeremiah 29:11
Living for the smile of my Prince
